out of my mind

lol... i feel stupid n coward lately... no body understands how i feel...

Exam results coming out soon... i knw it won;t be gud...

n tat stupid guy, stupid stupid guy!!! i'm dieing to knw wat he really think of me...

now i realize, its not just a crush, its a hard crush!!!! HARD ONE!

i seriously knw tat right now, i should have put all my concentrations on STPM,

But HELLO, i see him in school, see him during tuition and sometimes, sms me at night,

talking nonsense to keep each other awake to study...wat can i do... am i stupid???...

YUP, I THINK SO!

tell him how i feel? let him knw?  Sorry, the pressure's on, don't wana create problem, either for him

or myself... afterall, its my own feelings, there's nothing to do with him...

so, i think i'll just shout out loudly here where nobody listen and see this,

YES, I HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU!!!

A HARD ONE!

I'M FALLING FOR YOU!!!

I LIKE U VERY MUCH!

I'M NOT EXPECTING MUCH,

I JUST HOPE TAT YOU REALISES HOW I FEEL!!!

IF POSSIBLE, HUG ME FOR 1 MINUTE!!!

JUST 1 MINUTE... 

feels good a bit already...



Talk to myself?

Keep telling myself, 加油！

sometimes feels like i'm lying to myself...

sometimes, i think i overcome this feeling juz by ignoring it...

but, it keeps coming back over and over again...

他的好，他的可爱，他的温暖，他的调皮。。。

feel so...memorable...i guess...

好希望他能知道，但害怕希望带来失望的心情，早已把这念头给沉没了。。。

Another emo nite...

4/8/2011, i updated my FB status by posting 心动了， 但不能行动。。。
The next day some close friends look at me wit those eyes which they are hunger for your explanation...
i bet u all know tat kind of look...but this is a personal thing which i just wana keep to myself...

and guys, be fair k!

i dun knw y i like him so much, everytime, i try to keep some space between us,

he will just come and approach... lol, is it i'm the 1 who think too much or he's trying to make fun...

i'm so clear tat he's unavailable, but he's juz to sweet and cute...and its hard to mad at him...

almost all the time i wonder, did he ever felt  wat i'm feeling??? does he knows??? does he feels the same way as i do...??

the question is should i told him...!!!!!!! THE ANS OBVIOUSLY ITS A NO!NO NO NO!!!

but the inner side of me, i really hope he knows it!!! but i scared tat it'll scare him away!

Guess my worries had overcome my feelings and courage...its nt easy...cuz i hv no 1 to talk to....

someone, GUIDE ME PLEASE!





Fed up? or Tired?

Like, hello!!!! there's like almost a year since i ever updated to my blog....
but , who cares cause theres\;s no one follows it or even know tat tis blog of mine actually exist....haha
Don't you think tats funny?

tonight, i should continue to study as tis week is d exam week,but all i was doin was watching movies, especially my favourite drama came back in season 8!!! WOOHOO!! Its Grey's Anatomy! after tat was d American Idol results show for d finale! Kinda sad cause Haley wasn't d finalist!

2nite, i feel kinda strange... and the worst thing of all, is tat i don't have the mood to study for my exams... my mood kinda get stuck on some thing else, sometimes i just feels like why do i care since tat someone else don't seems tat important for me...but its easy to think , easy to say, but hard to do it!

Do you ever keep secrets deep deep deep~~~ inside your heart and never whispered it out even to your best friend and you even have to act like nothing was going on to deny it? well, i think tat it depends... sometimes you do tat is to protect yourself against betrayal...

Or do you really truly trust your best friend? i admit, i do not 100% have trust on them, mayb 90% perhaps?  you can share your feelings,laughters, happiness and your problems with them, but when it comes to things tat is more personal, maybe i've just prefer to keep it to myself...

Lets talk about wat i think bout love, i never deny tat i don't wana involve in a relationship at tis age, but the truth is now really isn't the right time, there's STPM in this end of the year, to prevent some avoidable problems from arising, its good in the sense tat not to put yourself into tis mess before you really ready for it!

so, enough for the night... tata!