out of my mind

lol... i feel stupid n coward lately... no body understands how i feel...

Exam results coming out soon... i knw it won;t be gud...

n tat stupid guy, stupid stupid guy!!! i'm dieing to knw wat he really think of me...

now i realize, its not just a crush, its a hard crush!!!! HARD ONE!

i seriously knw tat right now, i should have put all my concentrations on STPM,

But HELLO, i see him in school, see him during tuition and sometimes, sms me at night,

talking nonsense to keep each other awake to study...wat can i do... am i stupid???...

YUP, I THINK SO!

tell him how i feel? let him knw?  Sorry, the pressure's on, don't wana create problem, either for him

or myself... afterall, its my own feelings, there's nothing to do with him...

so, i think i'll just shout out loudly here where nobody listen and see this,

YES, I HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU!!!

A HARD ONE!

I'M FALLING FOR YOU!!!

I LIKE U VERY MUCH!

I'M NOT EXPECTING MUCH,

I JUST HOPE TAT YOU REALISES HOW I FEEL!!!

IF POSSIBLE, HUG ME FOR 1 MINUTE!!!

JUST 1 MINUTE... 

feels good a bit already...



Talk to myself?

Keep telling myself, 加油！

sometimes feels like i'm lying to myself...

sometimes, i think i overcome this feeling juz by ignoring it...

but, it keeps coming back over and over again...

他的好，他的可爱，他的温暖，他的调皮。。。

feel so...memorable...i guess...

好希望他能知道，但害怕希望带来失望的心情，早已把这念头给沉没了。。。

Another emo nite...

4/8/2011, i updated my FB status by posting 心动了， 但不能行动。。。
The next day some close friends look at me wit those eyes which they are hunger for your explanation...
i bet u all know tat kind of look...but this is a personal thing which i just wana keep to myself...

and guys, be fair k!

i dun knw y i like him so much, everytime, i try to keep some space between us,

he will just come and approach... lol, is it i'm the 1 who think too much or he's trying to make fun...

i'm so clear tat he's unavailable, but he's juz to sweet and cute...and its hard to mad at him...

almost all the time i wonder, did he ever felt  wat i'm feeling??? does he knows??? does he feels the same way as i do...??

the question is should i told him...!!!!!!! THE ANS OBVIOUSLY ITS A NO!NO NO NO!!!

but the inner side of me, i really hope he knows it!!! but i scared tat it'll scare him away!

Guess my worries had overcome my feelings and courage...its nt easy...cuz i hv no 1 to talk to....

someone, GUIDE ME PLEASE!





Fed up? or Tired?

Like, hello!!!! there's like almost a year since i ever updated to my blog....
but , who cares cause theres\;s no one follows it or even know tat tis blog of mine actually exist....haha
Don't you think tats funny?

tonight, i should continue to study as tis week is d exam week,but all i was doin was watching movies, especially my favourite drama came back in season 8!!! WOOHOO!! Its Grey's Anatomy! after tat was d American Idol results show for d finale! Kinda sad cause Haley wasn't d finalist!

2nite, i feel kinda strange... and the worst thing of all, is tat i don't have the mood to study for my exams... my mood kinda get stuck on some thing else, sometimes i just feels like why do i care since tat someone else don't seems tat important for me...but its easy to think , easy to say, but hard to do it!

Do you ever keep secrets deep deep deep~~~ inside your heart and never whispered it out even to your best friend and you even have to act like nothing was going on to deny it? well, i think tat it depends... sometimes you do tat is to protect yourself against betrayal...

Or do you really truly trust your best friend? i admit, i do not 100% have trust on them, mayb 90% perhaps?  you can share your feelings,laughters, happiness and your problems with them, but when it comes to things tat is more personal, maybe i've just prefer to keep it to myself...

Lets talk about wat i think bout love, i never deny tat i don't wana involve in a relationship at tis age, but the truth is now really isn't the right time, there's STPM in this end of the year, to prevent some avoidable problems from arising, its good in the sense tat not to put yourself into tis mess before you really ready for it!

so, enough for the night... tata!

some thoughts

nw i'm in form 6, in clhs
so, its a good skul i've ever been...

bt as everyone knw,stpm is 1 of the toughest exam in the world,
so i'm kinda afraid tat i couldn't pass through it!!!
 
nt sure whether medical is my life or juz as an interest...
so i'll juz work hard these 2 years
n hoping everything will b juz fine...

i wasn't as happy as i thought...

watching all my high skul buddies latest pic in fb makes me
feel smtg...
its lk smtg missing in my life....
n... i dun knw wat is it.....

bt i'm really feel happy 4 my frens....
sum in love ( boon c_e  lpn  ) lovess r on their face...


so, for now, i'm emo-ing....
n i'll b fine soon....no worries...

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好奇妙！

某一天，online 上 facebook，看见了小学6年级的班级照。

照片下面留了好多的comment，一个一个地看，也勾起了好多好多的回忆。

也因为那张照片，让我与隔了近6年的小学同学在次联络。哈哈哈！

蛮高兴的！！！

中学的时候，时常听朋友们说起他们小学同学的事，让我参与不了。

有点垂丧。

但原来他们都还记得我的，好安慰哦！哈哈！

我知道将有点三八啦！

有好多次去补习都有遇见他们，只是都没有打招呼，

好像不认识酱。有点够力咯！

那天去了田老师家拜年叻！大家都见面了！谈了好多！

aiya! lazy type d la!!!

many things 2 say la. juz hope tat our 15/3 gathering will be a success la!!!!

工作经验 IN QBM-ELEMENTS

18/12/2009，
第一天上班，
无工作经验的我，
踏出了第一步，
去经历一个新的体验。

我也算蛮幸运的，
第一次工作，
就有表姐照应着，
蛮愉快地啦！！
哈哈哈

还记得，
第一次告诉文婧我要去工作的时候，
她的反应比我还紧张呢！
回想起来还真得挺好笑的！

第一天上班，
也来了一位和我一样
考完了SPM来做占时工的
哗，
她的来历不小叻，
他是店里Supervisor的妹妹，
来自槟华，
第一天
她cool cool 的，
跟她没什么话聊。

可是接下来大家比较熟后，
才知道他不简单哟！

接下来不久，
又来了位槟华的毕业生,
做到第三天,
因为有点STEAM，
SO 就被supervisor 讲了几句，
隔天就不来了，
还记得那天是星期五。

隔了一天，
星期日，
她还带一般猪朋狗友来店里踩场，
girls + 她有三个，
个个我都认识，
boys 有两个，
不认识。（采你都傻啦！）

几个人堆在展示手表哪儿欣赏店里的手表，
当我们看见她带朋友来示威，
就很不爽了，
也刚好，
因为是礼拜天，
有很多客人，
我们才懒得采他们。

but 来者是客嘛！
不serve也不是办法！
刚好我又没有cust要serve,
在从fitting room 要走出去外面的当时，
其中一个骄傲的拜金girl,
提高她的手挥一挥，
然后说:“ EXCUSE ME!"
我不礼貌的看也不看一眼就从它旁边走过，
（应该气到她吧！）哈哈哈！