Steps Taken...

out of my mind

2011-10-01T12:33:00.000-07:00

lol... i feel stupid n coward lately... no body understands how i feel...

Exam results coming out soon... i knw it won;t be gud...

n tat stupid guy, stupid stupid guy!!! i'm dieing to knw wat he really think of me...

now i realize, its not just a crush, its a hard crush!!!! HARD ONE!

i seriously knw tat right now, i should have put all my concentrations on STPM,

But HELLO, i see him in school, see him during tuition and sometimes, sms me at night,

talking nonsense to keep each other awake to study...wat can i do... am i stupid???...

YUP, I THINK SO!

tell him how i feel? let him knw? Sorry, the pressure's on, don't wana create problem, either for him

or myself... afterall, its my own feelings, there's nothing to do with him...

so, i think i'll just shout out loudly here where nobody listen and see this,

YES, I HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU!!!

A HARD ONE!

I'M FALLING FOR YOU!!!

I LIKE U VERY MUCH!

I'M NOT EXPECTING MUCH,

I JUST HOPE TAT YOU REALISES HOW I FEEL!!!

IF POSSIBLE, HUG ME FOR 1 MINUTE!!!

JUST 1 MINUTE...

feels good a bit already...

Talk to myself?

2011-08-06T08:38:00.000-07:00

Keep telling myself, 加油！

sometimes feels like i'm lying to myself...

sometimes, i think i overcome this feeling juz by ignoring it...

but, it keeps coming back over and over again...

他的好，他的可爱，他的温暖，他的调皮。。。

feel so...memorable...i guess...

好希望他能知道，但害怕希望带来失望的心情，早已把这念头给沉没了。。。

Another emo nite...

2011-08-05T08:34:00.000-07:00

4/8/2011, i updated my FB status by posting 心动了，但不能行动。。。
The next day some close friends look at me wit those eyes which they are hunger for your explanation...
i bet u all know tat kind of look...but this is a personal thing which i just wana keep to myself...

and guys, be fair k!

i dun knw y i like him so much, everytime, i try to keep some space between us,

he will just come and approach... lol, is it i'm the 1 who think too much or he's trying to make fun...

i'm so clear tat he's unavailable, but he's juz to sweet and cute...and its hard to mad at him...

almost all the time i wonder, did he ever felt wat i'm feeling??? does he knows??? does he feels the same way as i do...??

the question is should i told him...!!!!!!! THE ANS OBVIOUSLY ITS A NO!NO NO NO!!!

but the inner side of me, i really hope he knows it!!! but i scared tat it'll scare him away!

Guess my worries had overcome my feelings and courage...its nt easy...cuz i hv no 1 to talk to....

someone, GUIDE ME PLEASE!

Fed up? or Tired?

2011-05-21T09:55:00.000-07:00

Like, hello!!!! there's like almost a year since i ever updated to my blog....
but , who cares cause theres\;s no one follows it or even know tat tis blog of mine actually exist....haha
Don't you think tats funny?

tonight, i should continue to study as tis week is d exam week,but all i was doin was watching movies, especially my favourite drama came back in season 8!!! WOOHOO!! Its Grey's Anatomy! after tat was d American Idol results show for d finale! Kinda sad cause Haley wasn't d finalist!

2nite, i feel kinda strange... and the worst thing of all, is tat i don't have the mood to study for my exams... my mood kinda get stuck on some thing else, sometimes i just feels like why do i care since tat someone else don't seems tat important for me...but its easy to think , easy to say, but hard to do it!

Do you ever keep secrets deep deep deep~~~ inside your heart and never whispered it out even to your best friend and you even have to act like nothing was going on to deny it? well, i think tat it depends... sometimes you do tat is to protect yourself against betrayal...

Or do you really truly trust your best friend? i admit, i do not 100% have trust on them, mayb 90% perhaps? you can share your feelings,laughters, happiness and your problems with them, but when it comes to things tat is more personal, maybe i've just prefer to keep it to myself...

Lets talk about wat i think bout love, i never deny tat i don't wana involve in a relationship at tis age, but the truth is now really isn't the right time, there's STPM in this end of the year, to prevent some avoidable problems from arising, its good in the sense tat not to put yourself into tis mess before you really ready for it!

so, enough for the night... tata!

some thoughts

2010-06-16T09:18:00.000-07:00

nw i'm in form 6, in clhs
so, its a good skul i've ever been...

bt as everyone knw,stpm is 1 of the toughest exam in the world,
so i'm kinda afraid tat i couldn't pass through it!!!

nt sure whether medical is my life or juz as an interest...
so i'll juz work hard these 2 years
n hoping everything will b juz fine...

i wasn't as happy as i thought...

watching all my high skul buddies latest pic in fb makes me
feel smtg...
its lk smtg missing in my life....
n... i dun knw wat is it.....

bt i'm really feel happy 4 my frens....
sum in love ( boon c_e lpn ) lovess r on their face...

so, for now, i'm emo-ing....
n i'll b fine soon....no worries...

缘

2010-03-08T00:35:00.000-08:00

好奇妙！

某一天，online 上 facebook，看见了小学6年级的班级照。

照片下面留了好多的comment，一个一个地看，也勾起了好多好多的回忆。

也因为那张照片，让我与隔了近6年的小学同学在次联络。哈哈哈！

蛮高兴的！！！

中学的时候，时常听朋友们说起他们小学同学的事，让我参与不了。

有点垂丧。

但原来他们都还记得我的，好安慰哦！哈哈！

我知道将有点三八啦！

有好多次去补习都有遇见他们，只是都没有打招呼，

好像不认识酱。有点够力咯！

那天去了田老师家拜年叻！大家都见面了！谈了好多！

aiya! lazy type d la!!!

many things 2 say la. juz hope tat our 15/3 gathering will be a success la!!!!

工作经验 IN QBM-ELEMENTS

2010-01-14T02:22:00.000-08:00

18/12/2009，
第一天上班，
无工作经验的我，
踏出了第一步，
去经历一个新的体验。

我也算蛮幸运的，
第一次工作，
就有表姐照应着，
蛮愉快地啦！！
哈哈哈

还记得，
第一次告诉文婧我要去工作的时候，
她的反应比我还紧张呢！
回想起来还真得挺好笑的！

第一天上班，
也来了一位和我一样
考完了SPM来做占时工的
哗，
她的来历不小叻，
他是店里Supervisor的妹妹，
来自槟华，
第一天
她cool cool 的，
跟她没什么话聊。

可是接下来大家比较熟后，
才知道他不简单哟！

接下来不久，
又来了位槟华的毕业生,
做到第三天,
因为有点STEAM，
SO 就被supervisor 讲了几句，
隔天就不来了，
还记得那天是星期五。

隔了一天，
星期日，
她还带一般猪朋狗友来店里踩场，
girls + 她有三个，
个个我都认识，
boys 有两个，
不认识。（采你都傻啦！）

几个人堆在展示手表哪儿欣赏店里的手表，
当我们看见她带朋友来示威，
就很不爽了，
也刚好，
因为是礼拜天，
有很多客人，
我们才懒得采他们。

but 来者是客嘛！
不serve也不是办法！
刚好我又没有cust要serve,
在从fitting room 要走出去外面的当时，
其中一个骄傲的拜金girl,
提高她的手挥一挥，
然后说:“ EXCUSE ME!"
我不礼貌的看也不看一眼就从它旁边走过，
（应该气到她吧！）哈哈哈！

Steps Taken...

2010-01-14T02:19:00.000-08:00

Steps Taken...

2010-01-14T02:18:00.000-08:00

hi guys, although there's no ''guys"!
currently hv a job in QBM, - ELEMENTS,
START FRM 18/12/2009

actually there is nt easy to WORK,
easy 2 say, hard 2 do,
there is so much rules to follow,
so much things to do, n
yet so tired n lots of pressure!!!

ARHHH,
ITS NOT EASY !

Kinda miss school life,
kinda miss my all my 'cha bo',
some of them go NS,
some hv their part time jobs,
some go n hv their car test,
some prepare to go 2 college,
some waiting for SPM results,
some terperuk at home n goyang kaki!

GIRLS, I MISS ALL OF YOU!!!

2009-10-31T08:51:00.000-07:00

30/10/2009

a day which i will not forget for the rest of my life!

its my graduation day in Union High School !!!

Just let the photos say it!

still got lots of it but

i'm pai seh to post la...

just wana say that

:thanks gals 4 being a good company n best friend that i ever had!

Saw Lay, Boon Jing, Yan Ji, Fong Sin, Kayu,Cai Minn, Kean Chyn, Yee Phing,

Jess Lyn,N ALL UHS 5S2 CLASSMATES...

N teachers in UHS r the BEST!!

I had never ever regret for choosing UHS!

THANKS FOR EVERY MIRACLE

THAT HAPPENS IN 2005-2009

anything

2009-09-25T06:52:00.000-07:00

last week have a fight wit my mom

but the next day ok d la

busy completing 'ji nian che' for friends these 2 days

but find it kinda hard to write

cuz

i hv different thoughts n memories wit each of them

so..........

b4 wanna start writing

hv 2 think deep bout each n every friend

my head grow bigger each time

ahahaha

wana congratz 2 UHS band girls 4 their achievement in 2009 merdeka parade!!!!!!!

they erm..... WE

GOT 2ND PLAce
again!!!!!

actually v kind lucky la....

so,

hope next year will b a better year than mine year.....

finish parade

pic wit zee yen jie ying n pn law

preparing n waiting

2009-09-17T21:48:00.000-07:00

stress 了3 个星期，
终于忙完了SPM预试，
睡了整个下午，relax relax 一下。

醒来，
就给老妈使唤，
当MAID ,
超不爽的。
BUT 我都忍了下来。

吃完晚饭后，
和老爸走去PASAR MALAM。
回来的时候，
无端端地给老妈喊来喊去。

X的，
她这样一喊，
之前忍下来的那口气，
一下子全部吐了出来！！

跟她吵架咯！！！

Hard to Believe

2009-08-15T07:35:00.000-07:00

GOSH!!!!!!!!!

IT WAS SO SO SO HARD TO BELIEVE!!!!

Just now i receive a very very very shocking news!

YUCKS!!!

dun wana say bout it!

Why am i lose to a prosXXXXXX?

Is tat fair?

to me it is a devastating news for girls who is

still single!!!

haiz!!!!

The world change!!!

Is tat guys blind???

I THINK SO!!!

Gossip

2009-08-12T23:44:00.000-07:00

talking about gossip,

tats a girl would certainly do.

do u think so?

But it still need to start with some shocking news

n topics ma.

it's hard 2 keep news which will spread

very very quickly...

If u din tell someone,

u really canot tahan 1!!

so, tats my specialty

juz cant change it!

Below is d Sunshine Square Building

i shot from my room with

Olympus 1050 SW.

the effect is not very good.

What do u think?

1st time...

2009-08-10T03:23:00.000-07:00

haha..tis is the 1st time i'm my own blog,

and with broken english.

Hmm... wondering whether i could get a credit 4 english in

SPM.

After busy for the whole year,

Its also quite a hard time 4 me,

n i hv learn alot

Grown alot,

Finaly i have retire from skul band.

its time 4 me 2 concentrate in my studies.

but every time i wana start my studies,

i dun knw where i should start from.

Tonnes of books waiting 4 me!!!

Dun feel like touching them oso.

I'll surely miss all the band members n sir u too.

Now i hereby, wishing AJK 2009/2010 good luck!!!

Memories...